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Date: 24th October 2015

This has been a very bad 12 months - I've lost my Father, Mother, a very dear friend in Australia, the love of my life and now my last companion.

I kept dogs for most of my adult life - Standard poodles.  But when I moved into an apartment 12 years ago I only had my little stray cat left and felt that it was time not to have dogs.  Although Tamby was found in a lane and quickly endeared himself to my large dogs and grew up with them, he very much ruled the roost in my flat.  Two years ago I took on a Klee Kai puppy - Tamby went on hunger strike and left home.  I realised that he was telling me that he was the boss and no way was I to bring another animal into our lives.  The Puppy went back I'm afraid.  They say that you own a dog but a Cat owns you. 

it's not prose and certainly not good poetry but I just had to jot down my feelings as they overwhelmed me today.  I'm sure anyone who has lost a treasured pet will understand how I feel.  At the moment I'm totally numb.


You came into my life as a little scrap of fur
With a purr double the size of you
You made friends with my dogs
How could I not keep you

Our first Christmas you pulled over the tree
You were a bundle of mischief
And so irresistibly loveable
You were totally your own little master

You’d climb the trees in the garden
But never got stuck
You curled up in the plant pots
And always loved the sun

I came home late at night
You were always there
Either on the pavement where I parked
Or on the wall to welcome me home

Sometimes you stayed out very very late
And I’d be up in the wee small hours
Calling your name into the night
Till eventually you came back and allowed me to sleep

You were very ill last year and I nearly lost you
You rallied, put on weight, but your nights of roaming were gone
You hardly ever went outside again and your character changed
Although I knew you cared you’d never been a lap cat

All that altered - you couldn’t wait to sit on my lap
You’d be there for hours on end
Did you understand that your life had been saved
Were you showing your gratitude?

You still sat next to me at breakfast
And demanded your two treats
But your purring was rare- your strength was going
You spent most of your day asleep

Today I was putting your medicine on your treats
When I turned you were collapsed on the floor
You rallied a little and ate the treats
You never lost your appetite or control

As I drove to the Vet I was hoping
But knew in my heart that this was our last journey
We are kinder to our animals than to people
I hugged you tight and left with the empty basket
And a crying heart.

All who met you at the Vet or at home were enchanted by you
You really were a very special little stray and I’m so glad you found me
Thank you for the joy and companionship you gave me
I miss you terribly Tamby Darling.




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